4:00 PM
just collected my xiao fei juan ((:pretty excited that i'll be attending my first jap & spanish class tomorrow (: i'm thinking of dropping by the german class to see what they're learning. think i'd revise deutsch too before i go to the states.. have been away from books for too long!
life has been the same. getting used to the lethargy -- always a bad sign! i kept thinking about the same old questions that have no answers (or answers that i refuse to accept) bleahs. maybe it's time for me to have short hair or something, like a new beginning. but then again, i think i'll totally regret it.. He doesnt intend to make life easy for me even during holidays huh?
i think i know what i should do/should have done. but knowing is never enough. my internal debate goes on and it always leaves me more lost than ever. this is so unhealthy. but there are just so many things that i have to be sure about, and i simply hate making decisions, especially decisions like this. i should really stop being an escapist. but. oh. the but-s!
friend. but then. foe?
cherish. or. taken for granted?
love.to hate?
i fear. or rather. regret.
the mess.