sometimes
9:07 PM
i know it is pretty pointless staring at the msn window wishing that something's gonna appear, but what else can i do but wait ever patiently. the last time i didn't and ruined every possible hope, love... i wish that things are much simpler. every second, i dread, of growing up -- seeing people losing that innocence, that faith in goodness...today hasn't been the best of days; but things move on.
somehow i know, deep inside, that this battle will be lost. however, i, too, know that i've gained so much personally. even if the (stupid adults) disregard happiness and fun, this time i don't want to give in; when i have so much faith .
this is the priority of my life. and i doubt that it will change, at least not for now. i've chosen happiness over reality, and yeah i suppose i'm willing to sacrifice. afterall i am a hopeless romantic + idealist.
hah! i see the orange light blinking.