explanation
11:01 AM
so yes, i initiated a break up with the most valid reasons.first of all, his mom.
actually i would like to take this last opportunity to apologise to her. because it really isn't her fault for being so angry to the extent that she called me and smsed me. afterall, she gave ming ge and i the choice (right at the beginning) to break up and wait till a year and a half later. however i find her words very accusative and she was unwilling to listen to my words. so whatever.
however, we defied her childishly. thinking that being together secretly is a better solution. of course, it just shows how little sensibility we have then. if we had followed his mom's words, we might have a chance to be together in future, considering the fact that she gave us an option.
however, ming ge, yes, you insisted that we will be together secretly and you'll talk to your mom. apparently you didn't really talk to your mom enough/at all. it's understandable that having such a difficult mom naturally groomed you into a guy who is very good at coaxing girls. you know how to make me feel assured and alright, but that is not enough. guess you'll realise that you are not defending me, protecting me enough.
so, now that we have ruined our own future, it is time to put a full stop to this non-existent fairy tale. yea, i believe in love. afterall, i really had a good time being with you and all that. you are a wonderful guy; but you are unworthy of being my friend. (boy friend is ultimately your best friend)because friends stand up for each other. yet you are not here for me when your mom was screaming at me.
so what is the use of feeling all guilty and apologising to me? hurt has already been inflicted. when your mother accused me of affecting your studies, did you not tell her that your results have actually improved because of me? because you felt all motivated and all that? did you not speak anything good for me? i know er ge did, and i really appreciate him standing up for us, speaking up for us, preventing your mom from barging into my school to talk to me. but all along what have you been telling your mom?
there are no regrets; afterall i admit that i really love you and cherished the relationship greatly. thank you for all the memories. you are a really sweet guy. you know how to take care of me, how to make me smile, how to pamper me. but love isn't just about that, now i've realised. it is much more than tolerating and getting used to each other as how you've phrased (愛是習慣與容忍)
love is also about...可以分擔你一生的愁, 不用山盟海誓, 卻能在狂風暴雨中, 陪著你慢慢地走...
親愛的明歌, 這或許是我最後一次寫一篇文章給你
相信你明白我的選擇
我受的傷害原本能夠避免
可是你沒有盡到一個朋友應該為對方挺身而出的職責
我並不怪你
因為我知道你很聽你母親的話
換作是我, 我也會很聽我媽的話
可是我難過的是你沒有替我辯解我的清白
都過去了, 我也不會追究
我們都沒有錯, 只是你不夠愛我的資格
我媽咪不希望我等你
她認為會傷害我的人不值得跟我在一起
她覺得你不值得我的眼淚
因為你沒有保護好我
我不想說如果的事
什麼如果你媽對我改觀, 你有能力替我辯護
你給我開的空頭支票太多了
失望太多了
真正的幸福是你可以微笑承認你曾經很幸福
我曾經很幸福, 謝謝你
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