1:09 PM
CONFUSEDI DECLARE CONFUSION =.=
sighs. why is it so difficult to get my emotions right?
when will i ever learn to balance those simplest things in life?
i dont like feeling lost.
yet i cant find myself anything to work hard towards;
because there is this lil' voice in me,
telling me to break free from this pathetic culture.
culture of materialism. culture of competition.
what is wrong with being number two?
what is wrong with low salary?
'cause one day we will realise that aint the point of life!
but everyone is blindly chasing things they call meaningful.
and somehow we just learn to conform to this hard pathetic world.
i am beginning to dread reality.
i want to follow my dream, although i aint so talented.
i aint strong-willed.
i aint so perfect as i have wanted myself to be.
i work hard, knowing it will never be enough.
now i am very very tired.
yet i dont give up this early, neither will i hang on for too long.
this is how we say good-bye...
i...love you...
and you know... i will... always be here...
all emotional after reading some of my favourite books, Tuesdays with Morrie and Five People You'll Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom