5:58 AM
today at 4am my maid went back to indonesia.hmm, although i only knew her for a year plus, she is not bad.
yeah, not bad at all. wonder how's the new maid like?
last night around 11 she knocked on my door and said that she's here to say good-bye.
honestly, it's kinda sad
(though i'm not at all close to her)
but i mean, after a year plus, it'll be weird without her presence, aint it.
and she's not just back to indonesia for a holiday, but to get married
meaning she is never coming back.
man, i dont believe i am feeling sad.
kinda like everyone is leaving.
or is it me who is leaving them?
maybe i should start being more sociable or something... mix with more people.
i am behaving like an anti-social hermit lately.
go out shopping... go for basketball... attend parties... anything really
instead of just using the computer all day long... blasting the stereo... dancing in my room eating french fries...
of course it is fun blasting the stereo. but maybe it's time to step out of my room.
it's pretty sad hearing about oldies losing the courage to step out of their house.
like the time when my grandma died, my grandad couldnt step out of the house.
he didnt dare to go out and eat alone at the restaurant, because grandma had always cooked at home.he didnt know what to do with the laundry because grandma had always washed his cloths.
yeah, but as time passes things begin to change and grandad learns to mix with the oldies, join clubs, go for karaokes like he used to when grandma was still alive.
they used to dance a lot and were the champions for many years. haha, lots of trophies at their house.
now grandad even has a girlfriend. haha, so cool right? my grandad is very handsome, talented and rich okay! haha.
sowieso, i am a lot younger yet more anti-social than some oldies around me.
that's bad.
so it's time for a change i guess.
time to be more independent. time to stop waiting for his sms-es.
time to determine my interests. time to appreciate what i have left.
